If I forget to love you I will stop living!
“It was hustling & bustles all around; recorded announcements were so loud to clearly heed each other’s voice, he was walking forward to find way for her, as they reached the raised area, tushar arranged her stuffs in the long iron electric carriage popularly known as Indian Train. With all her luggage arranged she was ready to leave & in his heart he was going to miss her. Soon, with its striking inimitable sound the wheel started rotating, gradual acceleration & she went miles away, waving him a sweet goodbye for a short while & a pretty face which smiled but sadly expressed “thanks, miss you”. It was 18th Sep 2009.
As a matter of fact, Indian love stories majorly begin or gear up on railway stations. And this story was no different. Tushar is a sweet emotional guy, the waving hand & the smile kept flashing in his mind from the time she disappeared. He missed her all his way to home & all the days when she wasn’t with him. He used to smile when he sat alone. The figment of the imagination grew up with time & he was happy then before. Of course he was in the state of metamorphic hormonal growth of sensitivity called LOVE.
Days passed on, the emotions & feelings have tied a brawny nought at this instant. The fragrance in the weather has increased & the evenings became beautiful than ever since they were in Bhopal.
They were out of their monotonous life now, with their daily routine they found perfect & happy hours for each other. Late night talks & sweet good mornings became their sweetest moments & soul.
It’s rightly said nothings can stop when you truly desire something. There was a mutual liking from both the ends but none of them has expressed it yet.
As a rule of Indian tradition that the guy should initiate, tushar did it. He said all what he was carrying in his heart from so long. All his feelings & desires, his emotions & imaginations, he said it all. And then! – Then what! …
Like history proves “girl never agrees at once”, trishi was not a rebellion to expunge the traces of history; she did not accept the proposal. May be, she thought it wasn’t the right time.
Months ended & feelings in tushar’s heart grew up more. He did not lose the courage & positive intuition to get her.
It was another pleasant evening when they met again, he was enjoying the breeze which passed her hairs; the beautiful sunset had spread a warm mould of colours with deep sense of feelings; same as in tushar’s heart. It was 4th of April when sitting by her side tushar held her hand & trishi could not or did not defy. As she liked it. It was loving, indeed. As he held her hand he uttered something, “tumhara hath pakad ke aisa laga, jaise mujhe meri saari dunia mil gai, please don’t take my world away”.
How could trishi deny now. The very next day on 5th April, 2010, she said those magical eight letters “I love you”.
This was an ignition to their sweet love story. Love was on peak. Late night talks now turned romantic, meetings were more loving now & promises were made to hold each other’s hand for life.
They met every evening. No one knew & they ran away from crowd to spend a time where the nature could see only two of them. Lake view & dams became their favourite place to hangout. They loved to spend time together, away from the raucous city, away from commotion & certainly away from people. This made the bonding grew stronger & stronger. Most of the time they went for long drives with cold breeze & silence around. The only thing they could hear than was each other’s voice & a soft romantic music in the background.
I tell you, it could be the most romantic & beautiful moment in a love life.
Tushar’s birthday falls on 22nd April. However his friends did not let him to go on 22nd to meet trishi. But no issues, understanding girl planned to celebrate it on 23rd with tushar & his best friend Aniruddh near dam. It was a beautiful celebration. What all you need for your birthday, just a few people who love you most, music & of course a delicious birthday cake. It was a perfect recipe to tie an unbreakable nought of relationship. The couple were sure to stay together forever & ever. Indian girl friends are very loving sometimes. :-p
Months passed by & so year… Within the course of time they had small fights, but trishi always tried to adjust & so does tushar. They were loyal & true to each other by now. And parenthetically clashes are good sometimes, they make you realise how much you need the other one.
It was February 2011, love was on zenith. A number of things happened in last 11 months, some sweet & some nasty, some loving & some tart happenings. But in the end, it was a syrupy relation by now. Both of them now hold memories for life, unforgettable & unsurpassed memories which they will cherish the whole of their life. The couple was happy.
But there is always a forlorn & unhelpful curve in a relationship. A disobliging (as per tushar) event occurred & that burned the bong of being together. Tushar’s parent’s came to know about his relation & they were strictly against trishi. Orthodox parents can’t tolerate their son loving a girl of different cast. Tushar choose it to be a obedient son rather than being a romio.
This was the saddest moment in their relationship. Sunsets seemed gloomy, the speakers which played romantic music a few days back, cried now, the dams kept waiting their influx, both waited for late night calls & sweet good mornings texts, long drives were lonely.
History proves – a Break up from eternity has been doomed & disaster-prone & will ever remain.
They were no different. Every night she used to wet her pillows & carried a fake smile all day. She tried & tried hard to convince him but it did not work.
If I include my personal perception, then it was not a genuine reason for break up. However this is a personal statement considering my field of experience & my frame of references. If you truly love someone & you know that you can stay happy only with her, then your parents will definitely understand. After all they are your parents, they gave you birth to give you a happy life not to booz & smoke & cry alone.
True love is very hard to find & what I believe that you should never leave & walk away when you got one. A few lucky people find a person who loves them so much & stays loyal.
And certainly you should never back down when you love somebody & have shown him/her dreams to stay together for life.
Trishi was sad & this sadness reflected in her eyes. She lost her smile. She use to hide on terrace & cry. She did not talk any one. Her life became sad, lonely & gloomy with no colours & imaginations.
She just had one expectation that he will come back. Her life was nothing pretty than a black n white tape with sad backdrop & ambience.
She used to walk alone, used to remember her past, her contented days with tushar.
On the other hand, tushar engaged in unhealthy & sad habits. He used to smoke & drink on a regular basis.
This time trishi did not lose the courage & positive intuition to get him back. It was approaching 22nd April again; she now decided to make a beautiful video with their photographs, music & texts for his birthday. She made it & she designed it very beautifully. It genuinely expressed all her emotions, her pain of loosing him, her happiness for the hours spend together, her dreams, her desire & her expectations…. Everything!
But this did not work. I guess tushar was now settled & have come out of sadness. He did not want to take a turn & upset his parents again. But this was a lame excuse man.
However, life has to move on. She is now trying to adjust herself in her lonely life, trying to focus on career & she is doing it pretty well. But she isn’t happy. She smiles, she laughs but deep in her heart she still carries an expectation to see him back. She even cries alone sometimes. In the bottom of her heart a sadness still prevails, which leaves her empty in the crowd, which disturbs her stability, her contentment. I don’t about tushar. May be even he is moving on the same track & if he is, then he should come back. Or must have a clear word with his parents.
Trishi is now trying to realise LIFE. The four letter unpredictable character which she needs now. She needs to be happy again, this gloomy face, this fake smile, the tears hidden down the pupil does not go well with her.
Sukesh
Sukesh
a sad endin 2 a happy story...:(
ReplyDeletebut seriously its beautiful...vrry well writtn dude..:)